Love has a taste

ahh


i bet you have never tasted love

and dont take this sexual or anything


but i have



and it all started when I was at gennaro and sanras

and when i go there to say hi... they always give me somthing to eat.. even though i tell them DONT! LOL

i love them though so much

and


they gave me spagetti

and it wasnt just regular spegetti

it was GENNAROS spagetti

and i loooveeeee his spagetti



but when i was eating it

i realized i have tasted love!



there is no word to describe his spagetti but love


and think about it

how do you describe love?



I think love is always a familiar (name one of the 5 sences here)
if you smell someone...and you love them.. even if its just for a short time

that scent will stay there forever

and pretty much pollute your nose with that scent forever


and from the next lover to your next.... that scent will be the same


in this case.. i tasted something
from someone who i love

and dont take this sexual

i love gennaro and sandra like they are my parents

anyway

i tasted somthing

and since all the things that i tasted from someone i love polluted my mouth

this spagetti made my heart bleed a waterfall of love



and maybe it was the effort my love has put into it that MADE me love it

or maybe the fact that the person my love made it forced me to love it


either or


love has a very hard descrption to blurt out

but i know i tasted it today

HIGH SCHOOL IS SO STRESSFUL

oh my god

i was like.. crying yesterday because I am way too stressed!

yesterday.. was the worst

ok, maybe it was ok.. i mean.. Kevin Alverez did smell awfully nice and it helped that he was in all my classes

BUT THATS NOT THE POINT

ok

so the rest of the day was fine until i got to my last period class... CHEMISTRY

and as I have been complaining.. CHEMISTRY IS THE WORST SUBJECT IN THE WORLD

and...we had a test

and I didnt know any of it!


so what was i suppose to do?!?!

i had no idea I couldnt even GUESS the answers.... and it was already after the bell

so, i just left it ALL blank and handed it in


and what really upset me is that the teacher kept calling me back and saying "Emily! Emily! come back here and finish your test! cmon you gotta just GUESS a couple!"

and im like "no im sorry Mrs. Kane! im sorry i just give up im sorry I give up!"

and then i just walked out of the room!

I know that was stupid to do and probably a little immature!

but I was so upset! what was I suppose to do? sit there and cry until the teacher came and talked to me?
thats just being a baby!

AND THEN SHE YELLED OUT TO THE WHOLE CLASS THAT I DIDNT MARK ANYTHING ON MY TEST

and then every one looked at me like i was such a stupid idiot with 9898798 heads!

I know the way I acted was immature and rude .... but every thing was so upsetting!


AND EVEN WORSE

ok
then i go to work


and I looove love love love my job

I love Sandra
I love Gennaro
I love working there


but I was so stressed out about school, I couldnt do it
I kept messing up

and I wanted to cry the whole time I was there

but I didnt

but every thing was so fustrating!
I was mad at myself for being stressed, I was mad that I had so much work to do
and I was mad for being so distracted!


and what was even worse is that I had to take a week off of work because of all these new assignments I have

and I hate taking off of work.. that makes me EVEN MORE stressed

and so I went home and i went to go cry in a pillow for an hour or two

and it was awful



and my mom is on my back about chemistry
and that stresses me out more



its just constant FIGHTING with her about chemistry
and how she wants me to quit my job... she doesnt want me to take art classes anymore
and she doesnt help out much

even when i said I was fine and I didnt want to talk to anyone....she STILL yelled at me about chemistry

I mean.. i know shes just being a mother.. but she doesnt have to be a mean nasty BAD one

and then she tells me how I should start worrying about my school work and to be more nicer to my friends
..... like thats any of her buisness... how awfull do i treat my friends??
I think I treat them pretty well! I mean.. im not the NICEST person in the world.. but ... i still.. am nice.

and how would she know anyway?
shes not there
OH
AND THEN GET THIS

then she says my "attitude" towards people makes all my boyfriends break up with me

UH HUH SURE MOM

the only real boyfriend I had was AJ>. AND I broke up with HIM

and plus... that was totally unannounced!

how can she bring up BOYS and my attitude when I said I didnt want to talk to anyone
AND when its more than obvious that I am upset about somthing.. NOT about people!


my mom is a whole other story to my stress
shes just bad and evil
and nasty








well..
today was a little better

chemistry was no better
me and my teacher ignored each other all day

and Kevin Alverez didnt wear any axe =(

and stupid dean shmuely looked at my chemistry grade for the test... and in front of THE WHOLE HALLWAY.. he said I got a 0 on my test...

i already knew that and its none of his buisness what I got.
also.. its not his call to tell the whole hallway that either...
that dick head is getting an F next quarter..... ill make sure

but I had fun with my friends after school
... my belt to my jacket broke, but I tied it to my head and I looked like I was in a 60's gang
LMAO

OH
and then my MOM comes to school and tells all my friends that i am going to this extra class for chemistry

AND THEN SHE TELLS ALL MY FRIENDS TO HELP AND TUTOR for my chemistry
how embaraccing

and i also went to Gennaros and I gave them both a big kiss and told them I would miss them
and they were happy to see me
and they also asked if I wanted to work next week and if I changed my mind
which makes me more happy


and then i went home and relaxed and listened to blind melon, billy joel, ingrid michaelson and all my favorite music to help me relax


also next week I have off from work... Im gunna call in from babysitting this weekend.. and I will have good personal time to myself

but the weekend is yet to come... high school is so stressful

Hair dressers are evil sons of bitches

ok so i got my hair trimmed a little today
and this bitch lady hair dresser says I have so much broken hair that she wanted to cut it all off

or at least to the part where all the hair broke off

and I said no
because it took me about 10 years to grow my hair this long, and i STILL think its not long!

So she got annoyed that I said no
and she actaully told my MOTHER

and my mother agrees with meits kind of like
feminine to have long hair

so yeah
the lady was so pissed off all because I DIDNT WANT HER TO CUT MY HAIR
all i wanted was a trim
and she gave me a trim
and now my hair looks fine
and yeah i admit my hair is broken at the top, but still it looks fine!

and theres a lot of girls who tell me
yeah cut it off Emily, it looks all frizzy and all your ends are broken
but they dont understand how long it takes to grow my hair!

and plus to be honest theres a lot of boys and men who tell me my hair looks beautiful!
Gennaro always tells me he likes it when my hair is up in a bun
(that can only happen with long hair)
but when I do let me hair down, he says its pretty and golden
^^ =D
LoL

Even that cute little Vinny told me he likes my hair long

point is, is that that hair dressing lady is a bitch
and im never going back to her again!
I mean, seriously.. do YOU think i should cut my hair?!

Happinessss is a warm gun

baang bang
shooot shooot


ANYWAY
i dont know why
I AM SO HAPPY
everything is going great for me

I EVEN UNDERSTOOD CHEMISTRY AND SPOKE SPANISH TODAY!
can you belive that?!
sigh

even at work its great
im getting better at not screwing up all the time!
which is awesome!

oOOoh and today my horoscope said the opposite sex was attracted to me =D
which i found true

today the russian barbers from next door said I looked nicer than all the other girls my age


and Gennaro even gave ME a kissusually its ME who kisses HIM!


and awwwww!!
everette didnt hit me when I gave HIM a kiss!
hahahaha
hes 4
he still believes in cooties

AND VINNY!
remember kisses from summer camp?
he was always hugging me last saturday!
which im sure he does to all girls
but it still felt sweet!
=D ^^^^^
and everything is goingmorethanperfectlygreat!!

I seriously think i have enough rainbows and butterflies in me to share with every depressed suicidal person!
and they need
A LOT

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Sex before marraige

Me and my friends were talking at lunch today

and many of us think that its alright to have sex before marraige

I personally think so
I mean
I'm still a virgin
BUt.. if the moment ever came up and I wasnt married, then who would I be to stop myself from going on.

Some of my religious friends say that it is against their "moral values" to have sex before marraige

And I say How come?

And they say that they want the moment to be special

Which I totally agree with.. They say that waiting for the person you love most will be special if you only do it with them

And that is true
I mean.. imagine waiting for so long to have sex with someone

which also brings up another point... would you marry someone just to have sex with them?
your most natural answer is no
But imagine waiting a long time for someone.. you get married.. you have sex..... dont you think the temptations will be over?
There just wont be any spark left over after the first time you have sex after marraige.

so then what.. you just get a divorce?!?


In my point of view.. I see it as
would you rather spend $15 or so on a condom...
or $15,000 on a wedding?

its kinda logic
and the wedding wont even be worth it because what if like... you get divorced??

thats just wasting money
this economy probably doesnt even have that much.

ONe of my friends even wants to get a PURITY ring to say to God that she will never have sex until she is married



and dont mistake me for a bastard
I totally repect peoples moral values
If you dont want to have sex before marraige.. then its fine with me.. I wont be affected by it, why should I care?

But its just kinda dumb to me when I ask people "WHy WONT you have sex before marraige?"
and they say "God says not to"

so of course I say "did he tell you individually?"

and they say "no... but the 10 commandments say not to"




first of all
MOSES wrote the 10 commandments .. not God

and second of all... commiting adultery is like.. one night standers..
Its not like Im gunna go around having sex with every man I see.. or every woman I see
just that.. if I trust someone enough.. I dont have to marry them before having sex
Sex is like.. a whole part of the relationship.. its the trust part of it.. which LEADS to trustin someone into marrying them

But any who.. I think god would be on my side on this.. even though I dont believe in religion... I still think god wants us to have sex before marraige
thats why he made hormones

Adam and Eve didnt get married

niether did like.. Mary and God

your allowed to have sex before marraige
god wont be mad at you


and once again.. I totally respect your opinion if you DONT want sex before marraige
but if the reason is "god told me so"
then I DONT respect you

your love for God and your love for your partner are totally different

and what happens if YOU NEVER GET MARRIED?!?!
YOU'LL BE A VIRGIN FOR YOUR WHOLE LIFE!!
THAT WOULD SUCK SO MUCH HARDER THAN COCKS


I know people will hate me for saying these things on a public internet site.. but seriously

God shouldnt get in your way of experiencing love and nature
god invented sex for a reason... more than just to have kids

I really do relate sex to actual love
and I love humans more than I do god
which is probably sinful of me to say... but thats just how I feel

SO overall

I think you should have sex before marraige...
I understand If you want to save the moment with your husband/wife to make it special
WHICH IS MORE THAN OKAY that is actually pretty romantic
But if your reason is because of religion.......then your just runing your own life
I can even understand if you think every one these days are horny bastards.. i somewhat agree with you! But please.. God doesnt have to get involved with your love for someone
Sex is natural


OPINIONS PLEEEZ ive been like.. asking every one LOL

Abortions

I know this subject is a little wierd to talk about

but I would seriously like some opinions about abortion

if Mccaine wins, women will have no choice but to keep the baby

so I think this subject is a little appropriate to say
but before, If I were in high school and got pregnant, by having fun that night or by being
raped.I would so get rid of the baby

but then Juno came out and I said.. oh.. well I guess I could always give it up for adoption
but then.. what if I got twins?I would live my whole life realizing I didnt raise those little
darlings that I want so much!

and if you know me you know that when I grow up, and stable and ready to have kids.. i really
really really want twins.

but what if I got them aborted?? that would be bad.. so Ill give them up for adoption... but then
someone else gets the pleasure in raising them!

so either way I wasted my life!

but twins or noti still want the pleasure of raising MY OWN mini me and not have to give them

up for someone else to have all the fun

but how could I do that if I'm in high school??

not that im planning to get pregnant or anything.. but I just like thinking ahead

I dont know how I could live with myself knowing I had my own part of my body given away to
someone else.

and what about the father of my child!what if i really did have fun that night and got pregnant
from carelesness (sp?)how would THEIR parents handle it?!

HOW WOULD MY PARENTS HANDLE IT?!

my dad would shoot the father NUMEBR 1and my momshed just slap me until the baby gets
out 9 months later

and my family is too poor to raise another child!

So aborting the baby is bad because you just wonder your whole life about how the baby would
look like and wonder who it would bewhat if it was the next best president???

and giving it to someone else is just heart breaking!you are just watching your own life being
grown up from a distance!because the baby isnt going to call YOU "mama"and YOU wont be
loved by itYOU probably wont see it that often

in my opinion... i would get an abortion because seeing all my hope and dreams being crushed

before my eyes would be too heart breaking for meI couldnt stand anything like that

I hate nazis

I am so upset
can you believe that Nazis and the KU KLUX KLAN still exsist?!
I cant believe that any one would even allow those thoughts into their mind like that!!!!!!!!
How dare any one segregate because of their outside

i mean i know I sound like such a little girl

but there comes a time in a womans life when she only wants LOVE in this world!

I cant even tell you how much Nazis deserve to die
they should burn to death
they should go drown in their nearest body source of water.

ONe time, I watched this Tyra Show Episode
and this family came in
all white
all rasist
And it was so sad
because they all belong to a Ku Klux Klan like.. tribe
or how ever you wanna call it
and there is swastica burnings and stuff in which the kids think is EXCITING!
they are AMUSED by it!
And i cant believe THEIR PARENTS RAISED THEM LIKE THAT

Its such a shame MORE THAN A SHAME
and what hurt me most is when the little girl said "I think its disguisting when 2 different races get married and have mutant children. It shouldnt happen and its just disguisting"

and i am so lucky to have an advantage
I am like.. whiter than a ghost
9th generation from Germany
4th generation from Ireland

but it just kills me to have people who are JUST LIKE ME think so negatively about others

and thanks to them we cant even have a black president
because once obama wins the election.......he will definetly be shot
no hiding that

And I totally understand
that they could have xenophobia
or maybe when they were young.. some black people shot their parents and have been afraid of them ever since

But if the reason is "they were raised like that"
there is just no point in living


who would have the heart to raise their kids like that
who would be that sick?!

and once again
i know I sound like a little girl

but it kills me to see every one hating each other in this world

every one should just focus on love
who cares about the economy
who cares about the skin color you are
who cares about the stuff that happened in the past

lets just forget about it and stop fighting with every one


I hate nazis